Lent Season
I had meant to go to church today, I told myself that even though I’m away from home I’ll try to still practice my faith… but it’s been so hard.
Today was super duper busy!!! I worked two jobs, had a test and held my first food forum. Most of my day was spent at work.
Right now, my priorities are school and work. I don’t even think about religion, not even my family. The only thing I call my parents for is to send me my notes from high school or for money. I feel so guilty that I’m neglecting them and God.
The friends that I hang out with now, don’t go to church. They have their own beliefs and values they just choose not to go to church, or they’re from a different religion. I don’t really have anyone here to guide me back to my faith. In the beginning of the year I went to church. But after a while, I didn’t like it because it was completely different from what I was used to, so I never went back.
But as I was rushing from class to work, I saw a boy who had an ash on his forehead. I felt ashamed. Why didn’t I go to church? Where’s the ash on my forehead? I reblogged recently my friends post about his take on lent and such. “Its because hes been there for me in my darkest hour and I’m going to be there for him in his.” I just feel so horrible. Back at home, I’m a role model. People respect me because they see me as this person with a strong faith. But ever since I’ve been here, I haven’t been doing what I’m supposed to do.
I do what I think should be done (in an economical sense) not a morally correct one.
I don’t have time to worry about other things in my life, I have to work hard, pay my tuition and maintain my grades.
For lent this year, I’m going to set aside time everyday to reflect and spend time with God. So for lent I’m not going to give up anything instead, I’m going to pray the rosary every night.
